until now

Bismiilah...

The matter keep on playing in my mine...
did i'm the only one,having that feeling?
if yes..no wonder i've been suffered...
if no...no wonder we both suffered...

And then, I woke up from my dream...

Just another bad dream with cold wind, and tears...

Pray everything going well...
for today and day after tomorrow

New Thing

Bismillah...

Alhamdulillah for today and yesterday...

There are a lot of things happen in my life, and I suppose to be thankful for it...

First of all,
 I finish my writing (4 month ago)and waiting for viva...hopefully this year...I dont want to postpone anymore...

Then,
7 Months already...working in Johor Bahru..and now I miss my Negeri Sembilan so much..
once a month to visit my mom, my sisters, my nephews and nieces...it is not enough..seriously..
Job getting tougher..and frankly speaking...I don't really like to work with 99% of one kind of race company...its annoy me everyday...and now I stuck with it...attitude is totally unexpected...totally...

Then,
11 Months already...for me...as a wife...and counting...
yeah..tough job...need to have special skills for that..

see.... what a skill I have, huh?...

I can seat on the ceiling...like a pro ninja...watchhaaaa!!! 

Then,
I feel thankful for my new tab..I never had a tab, and this is new...
a very cheap one since I am now in a way of looking for house...anyone?haha...
The story behind this zenpad is, actually I've been tortured everyday by senior at workplace and thats the reason mhy I spend my money for this!! yeah..for my job..

It is good thing somehow...there are application that suitable for office job..intel inside..
wider screen compare to phone and other...not going to promote more, but u may ask uncle google though...

ok...that all..
I getting stress and stress...
This job suppose to be so much fun, yet because of the people...Its annoying and fedup things..

p/s: Kalau da tak boleh nak buat orang senang...please la jangan buat orang susah...u have done enough!!

BERSAWANG a.k.a WEBSITING

Bismillah...

How funny, when the thing that u loves the most, now become something that u don’t do…

Yeah..I know, my blog has become one of the silent blog…

But actually, there are soooo many blog outhere, once a superb popular blog and now become just like mine…BERSAWANG..

Somehow, somewhat, somewhere…

I’ve become superb bz with my job…and know what? I hate it…

I have no time for myself..I mean to improve myself..

All I did was research…research..and research….

I’m forgetting of what is fun-to-doing-job….‟things that I like to do and people pay for it”…

Arghhh…what a life…

Somehow, there is something that I like to do if I get stress…

It is sooo easy…try it…

1.  Open “Google translet”
2.  Then do set up the setting as below;
3. Then click the volume sign...

It superb fun, and I can listen to the jokes all day round…hahaha

Ok guys…

Just to make sure my blog not WEBSITING…haha a.k.a bersawang…

Until next time…

P/s: Kalau pregnant mungkin akan selalu post…kalau la…

a reflection of the past

Bismillah...

its happen again...

Really need a way out…

And turn back time…

At least 9 years ago…

Where I can truly go for what I want in life..

Not living for other people…

Not pleasure other heart and ignore mine..

I feel sooo fake…

Lie to my own heart…

Crying inside for so many years…

Trying to do things I hate…

And laughing for stupid jokes…

BUT;

at the end of the day..

i know i can still smile for all of it...

its been a while,

the past memories cross by...

and say hi...

just a glance, but its change everything...

that colleague is really similar to someone i know..

my best friend..the act, the jokes...totally the same...

makes me missed the good old days...

sugguh dahsyatnya....haha

p/s: how i always found the same person on all level of my life...

cinta kurnia Ilahi

bismillah,

MALAY POST ALERT!

sedang asyik menyelak sehelai demi sehelai naskah surat khabar percuma syarikat,
satu senyuman yang panjang singgah di wajah si isteri..
teringat gelagat si suami yang seringkali dibulinya di rumah..

pastinya dalam hubungan suami isteri ada saja panahan-panahan berbisa singgah menyapa..

kekurangan si suami tampak jelas, manakala kelebihan si isteri cuma pada berat badan nya..
janji dengan diri untuk saling melengkapi,
namun seringkali pelengkap itu tidak pernah tepat...

gaduh, merajuk...cume selang sehari..kadang selang sejam...
jika dulu perkahwinan di anggap manis dan bahagia,
cume garam dan derita yang nampaknya menonjolkan diri...

astagfirullah,
satu ungkapan yang seringkali di ungkap...
memiliki seorang suami yang kuat cemburu dan manja...
pastinya sukar...
dan memiliki seorang isteri yang kasar dan kuat merajuk,
juga bukan mudah..

alhamdulillah,
walau derita itu sering menyinggah,
walau bahagia itu cuma sedetik,
namun apa yang aku pasti,
kami suami isteri telah cuba yang terbaik..

mungkin belum cukup ilmu menyantuni hati,
mungkin belum mahir untuk hidup berdua,
tapi Allah swt sentiasa ada untuk mengingati...

cinta itu perlukan pengorbanan..
bahagia itu perlukan masa...

dalam perkahwinan,
pasti dalam kekalutan kerja di ofis,
singgah lah senyuman teringatkan "cinta hati kurnia ilahi"..

gurauan semalam mencetus bahagia,
kedukaan kelmarin semakin hilang bersama debu2 yang di lap makcik cleaner...
jauh di sudut hati,
doa agar tetap bersama hingga ke jannah...
bersama anak2 yang soleh dan solehah..

p/s: makin lambat kahwin, makin lambat dapat anak...makin lambat dapat doa anak soleh...rruuugggiii!

The Start

Bismillah..

what a hectic day..
keep doing my thesis..not yet done...keep on writing...
plus, doing some new micro-SME things..processing...business...
and sleepy..and hungry...and tired...
but the end of the day..i love it...
UPM and all about it...it is just the best things happen in my life..
there will be no where i rather be for the last 9 years..

and on 1st April this year,
i'm about to left this UPM things...
new flag color...
new environment...
new colleague...
i bet, it is a good start...
"to have a job that you like, but other pay for it.." (qoute from my sis)
kind like a dream job..right?

who will i work for?
yup..JCorp...
in Johor..with my soulmate...finally..
Oh Allah...Alhamdulillah for the love..
I really not see this will coming to my life..
Syukur..

Thanks for the treat...my friend..my best friend...
you guys is the best things happen,
and i'm glad we meet in UPM, and make memories...
the grilled, the steamboat, the coffee, the burger and the shopping walk..
Its stay...forever...
at least for more than 30 years..and counting...

Supposedly i only need to feel worried or happy..or excited..
because i need to face a new environment..new job..finally~~
however, i think i would be afraid and confuse too..
since, my co-sv seem like need me here in UPM...
she really want to have me as her RA, even its only one day job.
i really want to help..just help..
but when she mention she'll pay me..
then i felt "OMG"...payment comes with obligation...
I pray Allah will make easy on this...

I'm gonna miss UPM a lot..
it is not like i'm not coming to UPM again..
but its feel like, i need to left a part of myself behind...
I hope i can breath well in johor...hehe

see ya...

FOOD HUNTING MALAYSIA

Bismillah..

so many things happen lately...in negative way i suppose..
make myself feel a lil bit down n stressful...
after all..i need to facing with all those for sure..
since running away seems cannot solve anything

counting the day pass by..
almost three month...as a wife..
yet don't feel like one though..hard time!!

long-distance relationship..
nothing much different..nothing change..
feel like single most of the time..and that is not good..believe me

before i thinking about the lame day i've been through, all alone for this couple of week..
I'm thinking about rewarding my self..
not now....but soon...
I wanna go for food hunting..
I've search couple of places..seafood of course...

let see my list:

1. Shell Out..

16-1, Jalan PJU 5/15,
Dataran Sunway,
Kota Damansara.

Business Hours:
Mon - Thu: 12:00 - 15:30, 17:30 - 22:00
Fri - Sat: 12:00 - 15:30, 17:30 - 23:00Sun: 17:30 - 22:00

price seem reasonable..but for sure..I prefer the taste better...
this gonna be my first food hunting place...
especially when its show "crawfish" as one of the menu item..crazyyy!!

halal x?well, based on feedback, its seafood afterall...
and a lot of muslim already come and comeback..hehe

2. William Corner, Klana Jaya SS 26
Never go there..
but this william already travel from mouth to mouth..they said it worth to try at william...
worth is not the word you can simply say...worth mean worth..haha

I am really crazy for seafood...oh my~~

ok..enough for the second place..

final place..
3. no where to be found in Malaysia

I am looking for Alaska king crab...since my super favorite is crab...lalala
no where to be found in malaysia..
only small medium size crab..
know how big it is..this alaska crab?
it is THIS big...

and give me one good reason, why I should say NO to this superb-creamy-juicy crabby dishes???

however...its okey..
who know..may be i further my doctorate not in malaysia..
may be...
wait for me alaska king crab...argghhhhh!!!

fuh...feel cool now..

THINK FOOD, FORGET PROBLEM...AND STAY COOL!!

Big Four plus TWO

Bismillah...

first story:

Thanks for the cake...An, Fifi, Mastura and Zura...full before lunch..hehe

Today is 11 february 2015...

and proud to say... I am 27th..

old huh?yeah...
even google wish me..haha

and alhamdulillah I have achieve some of my dream..

now, more dream to go..

my wedding (pihak lelaki)..is just around the conner...
on 19th of FEB..welcome2..
and i'm not prepare anything..tired of job hunting...

Henna...homemade...haha...jimat!

and second story:

as for today date 11 FEB ..Anwar Ibrahim 1st day at Sg Buloh..
speechless...
the crappiest story and UNlogical story is decided to be the most true story ever..
and only in Malaysia..brilliant! good job Malaysia...
this issue REALLY should be on the most amazing guinness book of world record..

even my father in law have ask me, once
"tim orang anuar ke? tak faham kenapa org muda suke sgt ikut anuar"
well, it is true...
the old folks would never understand..but me..
i'm absolutely clear about my believe..
well, we'll search for the justice and truth..and also logic..
and decide...
PERJUANGAN HARUS DITERUSKAN

this two big things in one day...
really gonna be a day to remember...

and as for today...

I've got two calls for interview..
one is from bigfour company and the other one Jcorp company..
and again need to complete all the assessment...
tired of doing all the assessment and the end what i get is TIRED...haha

talking about big four.. I never heard about it, to be honest...
I knew it just after i join the assessment of JCAP program..
this big four is kind like a dream company for account student...
and I'm not sure, why me..as agribusiness student have never heard about it..
funny right...
just wanna share,
who are the BIG FOUR

KPMG is the one who calling me for the interview session this friday..well, i don't expect too much..just about to giving a shoot about this opportunities.. well, who knows..

This is Deloitte...well, not really familiar...haha..not exactly my dream career movement..

Also called as EY...well, i've learn bout EY..and have heard about it...long time ago..

last but not least, PwC...they said (the account student), this PwC is kind like dream company..

well, not really a dream for business student like me..

since I dream to have my own...haha

I heard Flemming is about to open new branch in Malaysia...ok, this is also an accounting firm..
sound like account and finance student, right?haha

Ok..that it..
the BIG FOUR...actually i need to learn a bit about them...
who knows I might be one of them..haha
the BIG FIVE...haha

after all, hope this day end with smile..
my Prof ask me to continue my job for sabah and sarawak..and I just say yes..
seem like, i'll be stuck in upm for now...but not forever...

p/s: Pray for me to get the job before the February end...thanks guys!

experience on january

Bismillah...

Assalamualaikum wbt...

its been a month...a lil bit busy...
yeah...looking for job of course..
my boss ask me to stay and continue research at sabah sarawak..
but i dont feel like wanna stay anymore..

i had 4 interview on january...
PTD, Account chattered JCAp(under JCORP), HSBC, EPSON...
arghh....thinking about to givin up and be full housewife...
but yeah,we r not stable yet...so i really need to find a job...
definitely in Johor...
common question and statement...
"u have good result,why not lecturer?"
"u r married, this job ask u to stay late"
" u r too good for this job"

married and too good or too genius is a crime?
i just don't understand...
lecturer...why all those interviewer ask me to be a lecturer?
do genius only in education jobspec?haha...not really a genius la pun...
i am not a smart student,i don't read books..plus i hate reading...
i just love learning..is that a crime to get a good result, just becoz i love learning in agriculture and business?
do i really need to be a lecturer just because continue learning?
what a mindset...
so i guess..that why all student with no degree or master student success in business and be a millionaire..while degree or master holder, just do the teaching...
well, at the end...rezeki milik Allah swt...and we just need to pray and tawakkal...

alright..forget about that..
i once mention to share my wedding budget..which for me just nice for a simple wedding..
but with a bit more job-to-do...

Dress:
Baju Nikah Perempuan: RM159.00
Tempahan Baju Sanding Perempuan: RM 160.00 (kain hntaran mase tunang)
Kain2 tambahan (veil,lace,manik,selendang): RM100 (actually kurang dr 100)
Bunga Tangan: Sponser
Total: RM419.00
Baju Nikah Lelaki (Jubah): RM280.00 (pihak lelaki demand brand)
Tempahan Baju Sanding Lelaki: RM 100.00
Total: RM380.00
TOTAL KESELURUHAN DRESS: RM 799.00
KELEBIHAN: Baju boleh reuse untuk majlis belah lelaki tanpa tambahan duit sbb baju veil sendiri..

Make up:
Nikah: Make up Sendiri..
Cost barang make up : RM 150.00 (sbb xpernah make up, so semua kne beli baru..haha)

 ni gambar tanpa 360 or edit...ok je kan make up sendiri..

Sanding: Sponser (Ikutkan nk makeup sendiri jugak)

crown: RM16.00
TOTAL KESELURUHAN: RM166.00

MAKANAN REWANG
Makanan: Nasi Minyak, Nasi Putih, Ayam masak merah, Daging Masak Lemak, Tempoyak Daun Kayu, Kerabu Mangga, Dalca, makanan pengantin dan byk lagi...xsempat nk tgk...
Total untuk masak2 termasuk makan untuk orang rewang: RM 6500.00+-

Goodies Bag: RM1100.00
(termasuk 600 botol kicap jalen,telur, air mineral, and dutch lady coklat untuk kanak2)
Goodies untuk Family: RM400.00+-
siap ade cabutan bertuah 20 hadiah untuk org rewang..
thanks pada yang kakak sponser blakang2jugak..xsure brape..
TOTAL KESELURUHAN: RM 8000.00

Majlis Accessory:

Pelamin: RM 1500.00 (kain,carpet, bunga,papan...semua boleh reuse balik sbb buat sendiri)..

thema klu ikutkan garden...ok kan?hehe...

Cake: Sponcer by my sis Ayu...

My Victoria Cake Wedding... 

Taste superb...my friend told me...

ok..ape lagi yang missing?hurm...
oh...PA system : RM250.00
Nasihat aq jangan pernah gune sedare mare nye servis..sbb aq da kene mase majlis aq ni la...
sbb ape...sebab confirm lagu putus cinta byk...aq da request lagu kawin je..klu x pun,lagu cinta bersemi ke..cewah...haha
ni x, diorg p pasang gak lagu putus cinta...sedih~~ni je part y aq xpuas hati kluar duit..wlupun RM250 je..tp pada aq..dr dok karok lagu putus cinta, baik aq xpyah tempah PA system terus..senyap lagi baik..

Jadi secara conclusi nya,TOTAL PENUH MAJLIS: RM10,715.00...
murah kan...klu ade bantuan belakang2 dari makcik ke, kakak ke, adik ke...aq rase TOTAL masih lagi bawah RM15,000.00...

I once go to bridal, and she told me that normal wedding nowdays is 60K..
well, i believe, If u want ur wedding to be simple and still nice, you always can make time to planning...

Normally, My dad do wedding planning. but this time, all of my sister help me out..and its turn totally superb for me..they help from the very first day...thanks sis...

this is it...
now my boss keep calling me...and looking for me...
while I'm still in Johor..arghhh..he gonna kill me..he gonna kill me..

until next post...daaaaa

2015: a new year post..

Bismillah...

a new life...a new beginning...

2014...what a year..exhausted year and totally a havoc year..
and before I forget where am I standing, Alhamdulillah for every single things that happened..
the hurt, the love, the dark, the light, the sadness and the happiness..
I know that everything happen is the best...totally the best...

for some background: Kau ditakdirkan untuk ku

Alhamdulillah...28th December 2014...

officially I'M A WIFE

to a man MOHD AKMAL RAMLI

alhamdulillah...

I believe, life will never be easy...
but, after get married, what I felt is a part of my whole problem is missing..its gone...
for short, I feel relief...seriously..
 some shooot from my friends...thanks guys

totally love this picture... its super cool...haha...gedik skit di situ...

and just wanna post some of gift from all...just some of it..in case i will delete it from my phone..hehe
forget already which come from whom...

but seriously thanks for Diana, Aishah, Nadia, SitiNasihah and Mawi, ana, fida, anum, lyana, Ilham, Fitri, Zam Shiro, hazwani, juhana, harnadia, azue, zyma nad pacak, Dr.Nitty, Syafiq and Baqiah, Cikgu Norizan, Cikgu Jue, ila and hubby, k.azie and hubby, ciklah, k.ida, my sis k.dah, k.yu, k.na, k.tie, ct..and my wali dzul...my mom, my aunt, my uncle, my father and mother in law and all...

and not to forget my best friend teh arfah for being such a super girl and help me around...and mimi for kompang and hand bouquet flowers..thanks a lot..and i know i will never ever can repay u guys with thanks..

lastly...

thanks for my husband cause accept me just the way I am...

the bad side of me, and all my flaw..

I know I will not be perfect for you dear, but with you..My life is perfect..

Pray for us be in Jannah together...InsyaAllah...

lets do this together...yeah!