Start vs. End

Bismillah...

today as 1st of january 2014..
people have a family holiday,
sent their children to school,
lunch with good food,
and may be spend hours for movie..

but mine...

have some bad sms in the morning,
meeting till 3.00 pm,
and the rest of afternoon in lab (it was fun actually)

This is acid boric..i guess this is my first time seeing this, and deal with it...

 after finish deal with it, the i want to wash it..

 then...when i put H2O, then the colour turn green...i found miracle..cipataan Allah~~

and now, i am still at faculty...
doing what?
well, updating my blog..
because i just trying hard not to cry and be sad..
as for today, is my last day of engagement..

well,
I've decided not to wait anymore..
since there are nothing for me to believe and depend on..
nothing happen...well it is mean really nothing happen...not even a single things..
somehow,
I feel release..
at least, I try hard to keep on this relation for a year and 2 days..

so,
when others thinks and start with new dream,
I end up with cut off all the dream I keep for the whole year of 2013..

somehow,
I feel happy for my friends that will end the "single" status this year...
and for me..

single doesn't have to mean lonely...

single simply mean " I resting my heart until it's ready to love again"

since today is the first day of the year,
I just put my self on "not to believe anyone else, except Allah and myself"
I just don't want to hurt my heart again...
My heart just bleed 2 times this year..and I believe I need to take care more of my heart..

ok that's it..or i'm going to cry...
oh God!