Run Away

Bismillah...

Today, my life full with shopping activities..
Starts from Texas till the last hardware shop..
cost? don't ask..
if we thinking about money, then what point of shopping right?
haha

why shopping?
don't know...i feels blurr
what am i doing in life...
something i that i don't understand..
this study, this work, that relation and those people..
everything!
 i feel just exactly what the one republic song saying..

"I feel something so right

By doing the wrong thing

And I feel something so wrong

By doing the right thing"

seriously we know the reason we be in this world..
"I do not create human and jinn except for doing ibadah to Me" Surah Adzariyat
well, its crystal clear...seriously clear
and what kind of ibadah?
exactly what Rasulullah saw (please be upon him) told us..
we all have the answer...i mean me, myself know the answer
but why i keep feel something so right, even it is wrong..
and feel something so wrong, when doing something right?
Pray Allah to me give soul with islam and faith..

i do think about running away..
and go somewhere beautiful...
keep myself calm first..
and start once more to be a better musleem..
and a better person to do what Rasulullah have told us to do..

some place i wanna go and run away..

florida

maldives

Maxico

New York

Paris

Spain

Switzerland

Sydney

Tulips!!! Netherland

Venice/Romantica!

Just a sweet agriculture in Vietnam

Beautiful right??

But my friend saying that running away is one way but bad way..
i should believe him since by the time he running away, i feel very bad...
and i don't know, if i running away, will others feel that too?

whatever it is,
i surely think about changing my life..
maybe doin my study as part time..
still need to rest up head from this stressful things..
and keep calm..
then i can make a decision..hope more wise, guess..

Pray for me!
Pray for all Musleem
to be and have better in everything