what an Incident - Trauma

Bismillah

In the name of Allah, the most gracious and most merciful..

today, i feel much better than 2 days ago..
why?
because i had an accident...at roundabout...
i always afraid with roundabout, and now i am the one of the...
what shout i said? victim or the defender?

the stories is like this...
i was going to Damansara urgently..
at roundabout, i want to go to 12 o'clock...
suddenly a motorcycle come speedly from 9 o'clock..
i couldn't brake, and hit him at the back of his motorcycle..
yes..he fell down and his shoulder maybe "misplace"...
my friend and i call the ambulance directly, and the ambulance come,
take the boy (form5 student) and just like that..happen in 10 minutes..
i dont know the boys name...or else about him..

according to the guard and doctor..
the boy is actually the one who guilty...
but, my self feel bad too...

my friend ask for her mother phone number,
but the number she gave to us is not in services?
what that suppose to mean??

i didn't ask for claim or what...
just worried about him actually...
until now, no more news about him...

i am going to do a police report today..
and hope the boy is absolutely find and can take the SPM exam this november..

i actually in trauma...afraid...worried...

i couldn't drive in peace as i do before..

always trauma when see motorcycle around my car while i driving..

please to all rider...
i one of the motorcycle rider too,
ride carefully...for your own sake..
you are 360 degree in danger all the time while riding...so please...

my stories maybe seems simple,but remember..

ITS STILL ACCIDENT!!

Matilah Kau (You Go to Die)-Once

Bismillah..

today, i really wanna scream...
arghh!!

hey, wait...why??
Nothing..I just about to know something that i unsatisfied..
what?
when ever i think about this problem, now become a true stories..before this, i just expected..
but now, the truth is reveal...and hate it!!!


if you read this..what i wanna say to you is:
when i put a trust on you and you cheat,
not one, but more than twice!!
you no longer my best friend, and no longer a friend..
and maybe not even close to a person that i want to meet in my life again..
EVERRR

i just wanna say n sing this song with smile to someone that i once believe in mylife..CRUEL-OF-ME

ever heard Once song?title...

YOU-GO-TO-DIE

Mawah merah yang ku cium

Ternyata menusuk dan beracun

Wanginya menyenangkan hatiku

Membuatku tak karuan

Sehari tak bertemu dengannya

Serasa hampa dalam hatiku

Ku mabuk cinta yang tak terbaca

Oleh naluriku

Dia sama sekali tak cintai diriku

Dia hanya memanfaatkan diriku

Reff:

Matilah kau di dalam hatiku

YOU GO TO DIE IN MY HEART

Bawa pergi saja dirimu

BRING YOURSELF 

Sampai ke dasar lautan

TO THE DEEP-inside THE SEA

Matilah kau bersama cintaku

Banyak berharaplah dirimu

Semoga dapat bahagia

Berharaplah

Ku berlutut di bawah kakinya

Ku berikan hatiku untuknya

Ku telan semua luka-luka

Ku tak punya perisai lagi

Sehari tak bertemu dengannya

Serasa hampa dalam hatiku

Ku mabuk cinta yang tak terbaca

Oleh naluriku

fully satisfied!

Government staff-Malaysia

Bismillah...

well, you guys ever come to Malaysia?
if yes, ever deal with one of them (Government Staff)?
what do you think?
do they deserve a month and a half bonus this year???

my opinion is..THEY DON'T DESERVE our money!!

why??
on monday this week..
i go to one of the department here, just to get a sign..
yet, the person in charge is MC..well, nobody else wanna help though..
i just want a sign..thats all..its ok..i leave a notice there say i will come tomorrow..
then i come the day after...
SHE saids.."i already post to the faculty"..well, kind of weirdo because i'm not faculty staff...
but its ok..i come everyday to faculty to make sure my form are there..
yet now is friday..and my form wasn't at the faculty yet..how come???

then i go back to the department and ask detail about where my form goes?
know what?
SHE saids "oh, your form not yet sign and my boss not in the office..come next week"
and i said "THANKS" but heart said..."THATs IS SO STUPID AND YOU SHOULD RESIGN"

SHE and government staff like her really don't deserve that bonus...

the truth is like this!!

PRIVATE STAFF:

GOVERNMENT STAFF:

got the picture??explain plezzz....

normally private company always in their office even in lunch hour to serve customer..yet they work really hard...i know because i once work with TESCO sdn bhd...

but...
government always go out and eat 3 times a day (between 9am-5pm)...
break morning should be 10:30am...at 10am you won't find any person in the office..
lunch:1pm..at 12 you won't get serve anymore..they rest already...until 3pm even thought they should be in the office at 2pm....
at evening 4:30pm...they already packs their stuff and get home..THE END!!!

moral of the story...

i hate when we as MALAYSIAN need to pay money to THOSE KIND OF PEOPLE...

MBLAQ-ITS WAR:idea,novel and crying

Bismillah...

Know what, i try to write a novel today...just try...
who knows someone will publish my novel...
about what?hurm~~
don't know...just write whatever i know..

where i got that idea??crazy huh??
well, i listen to a song by MBLAQ-ITS WAR...
i don't get any idea what they sing but,
what i know the video music for that song is really touch my heart..
i even cry everytime i hear to the song and remember that music video...
yeah...i am crying!!lalala
even Cinderella cry when someone broke her heart so..

the most climax moments today is:
when i really desperately want to eat this.....

STRAWBERRY PIE

and THIS....

STRAWBERRY DIP WITH CHOCLATE

and THIS....

PAVLOVA BERRY'S

Oh my Allah...

i know i can't eat those coz it make me bigger and sick...but syukur Alhamdulillah cause let me imagine those beautiful food and dessert....nyummmy..hehe

before that...

know what??Pakcik at Pusat Jualan UPM treat us with kedondong and kuah rojak today...

not bad actually...Allah knows the best for us...

steal, robber, thief...

Bismillah...

today...pending jobs seems to be settle slowly...alhamdulillah..
but birokrasi is very very make things much slow~~derrr

actually, my friend almost lost her motorcycle..
someone seems wanna steal it..but thanks Allah coz, maybe the lock seem hard to be broke,
then the thief just giving up..guess so~~
but then the lock is already broken and my friend can't unlock the lock..get me?hehe

all mechanics don't want to help us..what a selfish..
we suddenly ask help from UPM guard and they are hero!!

because of this, i just have a breakfast and luch with THIS...

on diet???
yeah NO...i just dont have mood to eat...ahaks!
no la..its just, to many things need to be settle and travel..

I WANT A CAR!!please~~~~~

desperate already...lalala~~~~

dream not yet come true

Bismillah...

Well today, i've been through a lot of things...tired?
a bit...
and suddenly i remember to this~~~

i want this!!
so need to work very hard..lalala~~

yeah..its just a GEN 2 and no longer sales in the market...
but do i care..as long as i can get this...my favorite...

dream, struggle and get it..ops~~remember, as Allah will..insyaAllah
believe and trust...
if the things is really for you, you may get it...its just about time~~

need a PUMPKIN!!!

BISMILLAH

i'm looking for a car..
what kind?hurm~~
any car i guess...just for make my life easy..
a bit easy...

i hope i can get the Cinderella car...

 i hope..lalala~~~

well, i dream of GEN 2 in my head..my dream sport car...
pray more, gain more..i believe that..

today i need to replace a lecturer..nervous!!
for the second time in class teaching someone at my age...
freakin out~~

well, cinderella not that nervous when get into the castle..
this is just a small class...what much horror can it goes??haha

this imagination should be ok...its exist right??yes!!