Just let me to be happy

Bismillah...

things doesn't goes well as expected...
keep thinking...what else should I do?

one word........miserable..
y did I say "yes" 2 years ago?
what am I thinking that time..
why this person appear to my life?
this person have all things that I hate the most...
yet, why did I say yes?

I know...
just because I am disappointed with the other answer..
then I choose to ruined my life...my whole life...

now I know how a single word can destroy my past, my present, and my future..

less than a month now...
my sis say its normal..but yet, I don't think so..
it is not normal...
how come hatred become so dominant?
I even thinking about to run away when the time is come..

but left my mom with shame on that day is impossible..
arghh...

Oh Allah..
please let me be happy..
with this fate...
I know this will never be the things that I love,
but You are the best planner..
I only have faith on You...