I Know Myself

Bismillah...

stressfull environment for this January 2016...
Supposely, new year bring new motivation, yet, thats not happen within my workplace...

I use to think, working with almost 100% malay would be some kind of easy environment..
no communication berrier, easy to learn new things and others...
somehow, the exactly happen is upside down..
it worst...i mean super worst...

I use to work with Japanese company, british company, US company...
but Malay company is the one who makes me..pfffttt!!
u n e x p l a i n e a b l e

In simple word..

Mengumpat...
Hasad Dengki....
Bangga Diri...
Mengulor...
Bajet Bagus...

it is so negative until i can't figure out, how a good staff should be.
I feel so much disappointed...
and I cannot learn any single thing, and need to keep myself calm and do what is right for the company..

I really love this job, and love this company....
but the people here...argghh...
i thought this kind of people is no longer exist, yet there are many here...Hrmmm...

Thinking about quit and go to somewhere else...
Problem is... Malaysia in the middle of crisis now...
should say that the corruption making this country a loser...
it is hard to find a place that give you what you like...pay you for doing what you passion with...
may be for the time being, I stick on the plan first...inshaAllah...
only few month left...

for me, as far as I know what is right, and what is wrong...
that is more than enough...
the main things is, "JANGAN CEPAT MELATAH"
Know yourself better...

i know that i'm not yet changes because of this enviroment.

I Surely put this on my next resume!!!!

Chaiyok team...Gambate ne!!!

p/s: Next job would be billionaire...thats it!!!

Welcome 2016

Bismillah...

Well..well...well...

people calling it a new year begin, yet I don't really feel anything...
feel the same... with super duper hectic job and duty...

Recall last year BIG things...
1. On April: Get Job here in JB
2. On December: Done my ViVA (not yet on correction...in 60 days)
3. On December: My 1st Wedding Anniversary

Yeahh..nothing much happen...
but I am totally sure, there were a lot-a lot of small things that place something in my heart and mind...

some of them know their promises they've made, some of them just forget about it...
but at the end of the day, what should happen, had happen...

this year promises... for myself...
there are only few things I pray to happen in 2016...
such as to finish my study...I mean really finish...haha

oh yes...on Feb 2016 I am about to move out to new environment...
I mean not staying with in-law...
Its about the time for me and mr.husband to stand on our own feet...
that is a BIG things...at least in this new year...

pray many cool things to happen....
waiting for my putra and putri maybe...
InshaAllah..

oh..today is Teh Arfah Birthday....3rd of January...
Gonna wish and pray her to meet her prince charming...

ok, until next time....

until now

Bismiilah...

The matter keep on playing in my mine...
did i'm the only one,having that feeling?
if yes..no wonder i've been suffered...
if no...no wonder we both suffered...

And then, I woke up from my dream...

Just another bad dream with cold wind, and tears...

Pray everything going well...
for today and day after tomorrow

New Thing

Bismillah...

Alhamdulillah for today and yesterday...

There are a lot of things happen in my life, and I suppose to be thankful for it...

First of all,
 I finish my writing (4 month ago)and waiting for viva...hopefully this year...I dont want to postpone anymore...

Then,
7 Months already...working in Johor Bahru..and now I miss my Negeri Sembilan so much..
once a month to visit my mom, my sisters, my nephews and nieces...it is not enough..seriously..
Job getting tougher..and frankly speaking...I don't really like to work with 99% of one kind of race company...its annoy me everyday...and now I stuck with it...attitude is totally unexpected...totally...

Then,
11 Months already...for me...as a wife...and counting...
yeah..tough job...need to have special skills for that..

see.... what a skill I have, huh?...

I can seat on the ceiling...like a pro ninja...watchhaaaa!!! 

Then,
I feel thankful for my new tab..I never had a tab, and this is new...
a very cheap one since I am now in a way of looking for house...anyone?haha...
The story behind this zenpad is, actually I've been tortured everyday by senior at workplace and thats the reason mhy I spend my money for this!! yeah..for my job..

It is good thing somehow...there are application that suitable for office job..intel inside..
wider screen compare to phone and other...not going to promote more, but u may ask uncle google though...

ok...that all..
I getting stress and stress...
This job suppose to be so much fun, yet because of the people...Its annoying and fedup things..

p/s: Kalau da tak boleh nak buat orang senang...please la jangan buat orang susah...u have done enough!!

BERSAWANG a.k.a WEBSITING

Bismillah...

How funny, when the thing that u loves the most, now become something that u don’t do…

Yeah..I know, my blog has become one of the silent blog…

But actually, there are soooo many blog outhere, once a superb popular blog and now become just like mine…BERSAWANG..

Somehow, somewhat, somewhere…

I’ve become superb bz with my job…and know what? I hate it…

I have no time for myself..I mean to improve myself..

All I did was research…research..and research….

I’m forgetting of what is fun-to-doing-job….‟things that I like to do and people pay for it”…

Arghhh…what a life…

Somehow, there is something that I like to do if I get stress…

It is sooo easy…try it…

1.  Open “Google translet”
2.  Then do set up the setting as below;
3. Then click the volume sign...

It superb fun, and I can listen to the jokes all day round…hahaha

Ok guys…

Just to make sure my blog not WEBSITING…haha a.k.a bersawang…

Until next time…

P/s: Kalau pregnant mungkin akan selalu post…kalau la…

a reflection of the past

Bismillah...

its happen again...

Really need a way out…

And turn back time…

At least 9 years ago…

Where I can truly go for what I want in life..

Not living for other people…

Not pleasure other heart and ignore mine..

I feel sooo fake…

Lie to my own heart…

Crying inside for so many years…

Trying to do things I hate…

And laughing for stupid jokes…

BUT;

at the end of the day..

i know i can still smile for all of it...

its been a while,

the past memories cross by...

and say hi...

just a glance, but its change everything...

that colleague is really similar to someone i know..

my best friend..the act, the jokes...totally the same...

makes me missed the good old days...

sugguh dahsyatnya....haha

p/s: how i always found the same person on all level of my life...

cinta kurnia Ilahi

bismillah,

MALAY POST ALERT!

sedang asyik menyelak sehelai demi sehelai naskah surat khabar percuma syarikat,
satu senyuman yang panjang singgah di wajah si isteri..
teringat gelagat si suami yang seringkali dibulinya di rumah..

pastinya dalam hubungan suami isteri ada saja panahan-panahan berbisa singgah menyapa..

kekurangan si suami tampak jelas, manakala kelebihan si isteri cuma pada berat badan nya..
janji dengan diri untuk saling melengkapi,
namun seringkali pelengkap itu tidak pernah tepat...

gaduh, merajuk...cume selang sehari..kadang selang sejam...
jika dulu perkahwinan di anggap manis dan bahagia,
cume garam dan derita yang nampaknya menonjolkan diri...

astagfirullah,
satu ungkapan yang seringkali di ungkap...
memiliki seorang suami yang kuat cemburu dan manja...
pastinya sukar...
dan memiliki seorang isteri yang kasar dan kuat merajuk,
juga bukan mudah..

alhamdulillah,
walau derita itu sering menyinggah,
walau bahagia itu cuma sedetik,
namun apa yang aku pasti,
kami suami isteri telah cuba yang terbaik..

mungkin belum cukup ilmu menyantuni hati,
mungkin belum mahir untuk hidup berdua,
tapi Allah swt sentiasa ada untuk mengingati...

cinta itu perlukan pengorbanan..
bahagia itu perlukan masa...

dalam perkahwinan,
pasti dalam kekalutan kerja di ofis,
singgah lah senyuman teringatkan "cinta hati kurnia ilahi"..

gurauan semalam mencetus bahagia,
kedukaan kelmarin semakin hilang bersama debu2 yang di lap makcik cleaner...
jauh di sudut hati,
doa agar tetap bersama hingga ke jannah...
bersama anak2 yang soleh dan solehah..

p/s: makin lambat kahwin, makin lambat dapat anak...makin lambat dapat doa anak soleh...rruuugggiii!