Wednesday, 2 April 2014

if HE said so...

Bismillah..

Recently, I facing with a very difficult situation..
I don't even know how deal with it..
what am I suppose to react to it..
Smile?
Crying?
Hiding myself?
Angry?
I'm totally not sure...

"Mungkin kan terputus di tengah jalan,
Mungkin kan terlerai tanpa ikatan"
Usah ragu dengan takdir...

" Mungkin kita kan berbeza haluan,
Berakhirnya cerita percintaan"
Segalanya ketentuan Tuhan...

Finally I choose to smile and keep move on..
Somehow, that is not as easy as it seem..
Smile to all person I know just to show that I am stronger..
yes, I can do that...
but then crying all night...is something that I can't deal with anymore
It is way too much depression...misery...
being hypocrite to myself, like I don't feel-a-thing is not a right way to do...

but I believe smile, and keep smiling always help me to get better..
even sometimes I really wanna tell others how hurt it is..
how I really wanna scream and let it out loud...so the pain will go away...
but at the same time
I know I really can't depend on others just to stay and hear me..
not to a person with full of lies..
and I decided not to share anymore..
as I don't think the person even care about what happen...
I'm totally sure, I don't need him anymore..ever...promise this to myself..

Everything happen have its own reason...
As He already plan the most bestest plan for me..
and I don't even care anymore...
what I wanna do is to stay away from every single person
that actually hurt me..thats all...
and stay away forever...

now I feel better..

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