Just let me to be happy

Bismillah...

things doesn't goes well as expected...
keep thinking...what else should I do?

one word........miserable..
y did I say "yes" 2 years ago?
what am I thinking that time..
why this person appear to my life?
this person have all things that I hate the most...
yet, why did I say yes?

I know...
just because I am disappointed with the other answer..
then I choose to ruined my life...my whole life...

now I know how a single word can destroy my past, my present, and my future..

less than a month now...
my sis say its normal..but yet, I don't think so..
it is not normal...
how come hatred become so dominant?
I even thinking about to run away when the time is come..

but left my mom with shame on that day is impossible..
arghh...

Oh Allah..
please let me be happy..
with this fate...
I know this will never be the things that I love,
but You are the best planner..
I only have faith on You...

demi

Bismillah..

this song seems read myself well...

 

                    demi malam yang mungkin tak sempat habis,
                   demi siang yang mungkin tak sempat sampai... 
                               sudah-sudah lah...- Fynn Jamal

Itu kata fynn jamal...
kata aku pulak apa?

Kecewa...
itu cuma perasaan..
yang jika bukan hari ini, pasti esok...

yang aku kejar..
cuma bayangan yang mengecewakan...
jika tak hilang hari ini, pasti esok...

kenapa aku diberi gula?
bila besok mencipta penyakit...
kenapa dia kau beri madu?
kerana besok dia yang kau mahu?

sudah-sudah lah...

demi erti persahabatan
jangan beri aku apa-apa,
kerna besok sudah tiada masa...

demi erti persahabatan
sudah-sudah lah
aku penat dan kecewa...

p/s: kalau aku kuat, akan aku tanya tepat ke mata die...kenapa? luluh jantung di biar mati, di racun sahabat sendiri...

my pre-wedding

Bismillah...

my pre-wedding plan...not photo..no no no

Ok...if i can count day from today, only 46 days left...
fourty six huh?
seems like a lot of time remaining...duhhh

the nerve..the urgency...

there are a lot of things that i need to settle..... yet...
"Today I don't feel like doing anything,  I just wanna lay in my bed"
yeah..just like a lazy song...
that is what i feel..

but Alhamdulillah...
even things that tick as done is not that much,but it seem to be settled one by one...

firstly...
alhamdulillah..what interview or what position, let it stay a secret..haha
seems it is only a interview...
Remember Prof Ali advice...90/10 principle...90% is from you and 10% is fate...
 

I looking for a job...desperately...
even not yet finish my master..
johor is prior...even heart keep saying to stay..
Pray for the best...

Secondly:
borang nikah online submit already...only for n9, melaka, perlis, kedah and perak girl..ok?
this is a must...
and this coming jumaat, the result will come out...
Semoga dipermudahkan..

Thirdly:
 Wedding card...in progress....insyaAllah...
let see a piece of it..

  

this company is quite cheap... 500pcs+2 Bunting+ 5 button badges+post cost = rm220.00 

after a lot of consideration, this is the final design..

I  felt bad anyway, since i can't use my own design due to  costing...

 its ok..lets the important be prior...

fourthly...

my writing....yup still in progress..

chapter 4 already...need to keep on track...

thanks to my friend for staying back at faculty and write together-gether...

I think the next post, will be after I calculate all the expenses..hopefully i'm NOT over the budget..

so, until next post..

p/s: Can't think too positive now..need to be prepared! bersiap siaga

bet my life

Bismillah...

It seems like the whole year been busy..
what a world that I living in?
trying to get better every single day, even when its getting worse....

laughing on a jokes that makes other cry,
and crying on a jokes that others told...

now the day is less that 2 month,
while i keep counting on a day i left,
put myself in calm situation,
while outside is getting havoc..

before the day gone mad,
before everything is no longer mine,
only a few word left

I've told a million lies
But now I tell a single truth
There's you in everything I do

from now on..

I pray that u'll found someone lovely and sweet

that gonna take care of you..

choosing you, only you..while others millions are wait for her...

p/s: should I start counting days and start to love, while my heart seem reluctant to do so?I pray everything is gonna be just fine and get rahmah from Allah..

it's fixed!

Bismillah..

it's been a long time..
for me,not to blog walking..
and now, need to do blog walking to certain blog asap...

since life gonna be hard and harder,
i'll try to do things as efficient as possible..
insyaAllah...

it's fixed..date is fixed!!

less than three month to go..
nervous, worried, blur, and tired...
mixed feeling...
and really need to calm down..

the "list to do" is quite long and i'm done nothing...
what the first things to do?
fill up form?
cards?
backdrops?
dress?
catering?
goodies?
which one???

pray Allah make all easy...

3 month notice

Bismillah...

3 month...
seem so short when deals with study...
not yet done journal writing in 3 month
not yet done chapter writing in 3 month
arghh...so short

and one more thing that cannot be done in 3 month..
this one is something that will change my life totally...
will change my status...
will change my point of view...
will change my heaven direction...from mom to...hurmmm

3 month??
what i'm suppose to do?
what i'm suppose to react?
yes?
no?
give us another chance?
what?

one thing to do for now..
keep calm and istikharah

hela nafas kesyukuran

bismillah..

No matter how hard life could be, we know deep in our heart,
we will keep moving
cause Allah is there...always

Allah..
berikan lah ketenangan..
dan jadikan apa yang pernah berlaku iktibar dlm ceritaku..
jadi kan perpisahan ini pengakhiran penyeksaanku,
dan jadikan pertemuan akan datang sebagai bermulanya bahagiaku...
aku redha atas apa yang berlaku..
dan ikhlas utk aku melepaskan sesuatu yang sukar...

mungkin pada yang lain, bunyi nya seakan mngeluh
keluhan kesedihan dan kekecewaan...
namun cukup jelas pada aku..
ia adalah hela nafas kesyukuran..
syukur kerana sekali lagi cinta ku di uji...
dan aku tetap memilih redha padaMu...

In life there are people that will hurt us and cause us pain,
but we must learn to forgive and forget and not hold grudges.

In life there are mistakes we will make,
but we must learn from our wrongs and grow from them.

In life there are regrets we will have to live with,
but we must learn to leave the past behind and realize it is something we can't change.

In life there are people we will loose forever and can't have back,
but we must learn to let go and move on.

In life there are going to be obstacles that will cause interference,
but we must learn to overcome these challenges and grow stronger.

In life there are fears that will hold us back from what we want,
but we must learn to fight them with the courage from within.

God holds our lives in his hands. He holds the key to our future.
Only he knows our fate.

He see's everything and knows everything.
Everything in life really does happen for a reason: "God's Reason".

-Angie Flores-