once in a lifetime

Bismillah...

not too late to say this, i guess..
SALAM LEBARAN EIDUL FITRI MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN

for sure, I miss my dad a lot...
ask for his forgiving i a must..
yet, he reply nothing..
but i am surely believe he know that i miss him soo damn much..

i try to be great daughter...i mean better daughter since i am already great..daa
to u...and to mom..
i made a lot of mistake..to u and to mom..
i am sorry...i'll fix that this year..ok dad?

here some picture for u..

we look so orange that morning...everybody is here..

daughter and son...selfie...that new term,dad..additional word in dictionary..hehe

and of course...we the only who living alone and stay single...i mean 4 of us..

as just like u taught us..."ziarah" all atok and wan...makcik n pakcik...

and of course...here, picture of yours sweet little son and daughter..or may be prince and princess..living without you is hard, dad...but thanks for the only hero you left with us..

this is the 3rd day raya...nothing to do..just trying easily to finish all durian, manggis, rambutan, duku...etc

forget to mention..everybody left me behind, dad..me, myself sewing my own hari raya dress...thanks Allah cause its come out beautifully...for me at least...

u never left me behind, right dad? cause i always be ur little princess..yes, even i am big..haha

nice talking to you, dad..

before i end this,

i just wanna say..

when people or may be a person hurt me,

i really want u to be there and scold them..

like u always do...

those family make fool of me..and i am really sad right now..

heart broken and angry..

i know u can't come back home,now..

but in case u cross by, 

please come and visit me...

bye dad..

every moment happen is once in a lifetime..

I cannot get this second again in the future..

once i did, there will be no more turn back..

yes i regret...but i still believe it is the best to happen that time...

miss all the conversation,

the laughing,

the song we sang,

the food we share,

the moment we had...

 i am surely miss all that...

but if i could turn back time,

i wont make it different..

what happen is something that suppose to happen...

letting people go is hard..but let the memories go is even harder..
after all, you still need to let it go...
what used to keep something that not belong to you...

p/s: full of bad feeling after raya..thinking if i let all go..can i stay alone?without best friend memories?
i think that the best way to do right now..