another thousand times

Bismillah...

for another thousand times,
i may hurt my own self,
i may broke my own heart..

we expecting a person to change...
but what we get is a hypocrite person..
we expecting a person to be better,
what we actually get is a lie...

me..myself..
always found this type of person in my life...

i don't want to blame them..
i mean both of them...
but,

they actually change me to a bad person,
i mean, a really bad human...
because of what?
just because i am so disappointed with those kind of people in my life..
kind of hatred..

there will no time for hatred..
since life is too short..
but why?

so sad...
disappointing...
so want to cry...
but yet, no shoulder to cry on...